WTF

Cish.
I'm sad or I'm happy?
I've no idea.
I've checked Andrian's comments and all his messages in FS.
and......the results kinda make me disapointed.
yup..... I type all these because he will never read this post anyway.
-sigh-
damn.can someone share my problems with me,please??
but....please don't complaint that I'm really annoying ok?
because I really don't know how to tell anyone about my feelings,
because I've never try it before.
:( bad mood makes me old enough bay-beh...but.....

What can I do?!

someone please help me.
for more information,please call 016-0000000.
thanks for all your cooperations.

I miss Andrian so muccchh.
although something make me disapointed,
but its never mind.
Eva Natasha is not a jealousy girl....

BTW.I need to type this especially fer Katrina Claire a.k.a Kay.
She's one of my lovable sista.read it Kay.

Kay.
Congrats fer your result k.
7A oh....fuyyoohh.
Your smart,sweetie.
You need to admit that.
wakaka.
:D
Study hard fer your SPM.
let your parents proud of you,sweetie.
I'll support you.
love you Kay.
:D ily.

FINISH
.iloveandrian.

update my bloggie.

woohoo.
It's been a long time didnt update this bloggie.
Never mind.
I'll update it now sweetie.

Fer you all's information now I'm really desperatly boring,because Andrian is in Selangor fer his National Service a.k.a Khidmat Negara,and the service is fer 3 months.How long is that ?! damn. He can't celebrates my birthday on 27th January,but he already gave me the present fer my birthday.teehee :D so shweet..

Yup.New semester gonna starts soon. Good news or bad news sweetie? fer me.It is bad news,because..... I can't go shopping...except on Sunday.very desperate ni....because Saturday is my Corriculum day...As I need to go back to school and STUDY.wth. oh ya....1 more thing...and that is about exams.exams.exams.wtf.

Ok.stop the topic about study.Let's start with my yesterday...woohoo....FUN....oh ya.
Yesterday was Ismerelda Rosetta's birthday.... :D

Happy Birthday sweetie Rose.Ur 12 sweetie.

I went to Rose's house to celebrates her birthday.You guys know what I saw? I saw....
deng-deng-deng....I saw FOOOOOOOODDDDD..let's gain weight sweetie and the foods are totally yummy.Oh-oh-oh...I saw Rye too....The cat that wear contact lens.Not actually,the cat's eyes are totally cooolll man...GREEN......I'll upload the pic later sweetie.
The night I went to the Fun-fair which situated in Karamunsing.Andrian said to me :"nothing fun there,it's just a small fun-fair oni...." oh...andrian was definitely wrong.Although the fun-fair is small,but its fun.......damn fun.......neh-neh Andrian you're wrong my dear.haha.guys.I know you're totally bingung already,Andrian is in Selangor but still can sms me....haha....actually Andrian have bring his HP to Selangor.weehee.How happy am I?! INFINITY sweetie.

I miss Andrian a lot..........how many percent?! INFINITY.yup.I can't even imagine how deep that I miss him.I hope he will take care of himself.wth.Guys,my English not really good ya.If have grammar mistakes.please forgive me sweetie.

OKLAH. Andrian,I love you.muahs. Mia,Kay,Ain,Konea and Lenee. I miss you all. muuuuaaaaccckksss.

.THE END.

no mood....

LOST IN SADNESS
LOST IN SADNESS
LOST IN SADNESS
LOST IN SADNESS
LOST IN SADNESS
LOST IN SADNESS
LOST IN SADNESS

:(

27th December gonna come.I don't know what can I do if I can't sms him again.3months are totally long time.I know you guys don't understand me because I never tell anybody about my feelings. :( except BLOGGING. so,you guys can know what is my feelings.

I don't even know how to express my sadness and my happiness.Sometimes eventhough you see my face is smiling but I feel very sad. I don't know why I need to type all of these in my blog.Maybe I really feel myself lost in sadness.

If I cry,then everything will be OK,but.....I still can't forget the things that I still remember in my brain.I really want to cry!!!! but I can't....and I need to be happy..... :) can someone help me with this ??? I cry on Christmas week ?! NOWAY.

When I looked at my teddy a.k.a Andrian....and I really felt I really need help.....but I still can't find one because I need to find a person that really understand me.Maybe I will tell everything to Rosetta my friend.and she will see my tears.....

I've always tell myself that: "learn to express your feeling,Eva...." but I still can't do it.I cry every night......and I've always think about the things that i've worried since Monday..... Oh ya,maybe you guys know I have a BF rite?? but...... I don't know how to tell him my problem in anyway.

Maybe you guys think that: "Eva Natasha is a Happy-Go-Lucky- girl....and she's always happy.." but I guess I'm not a girl like that.... although I love to laugh.....but you guys don't know how sad am I....except the main situation is all about happy things lah kan....

I type all of this because ............ I'm LOST IN SADNESS.

EVA NATASHA IS LOST.
SHE'S WANTED.
PLEASE FIND HER NOW.
.FINISH.
please call 016-0000000
if you've found her.
thanx.

Merry Christmas :0

"wish you"
Merry Christmas!
ho-ho-ho.

I LOVE YOU GUYS.
MIA.
ANDRIAN
KAY
KONEA
AIN
TQAH
LENEE.

p/s to Anugera,Jude and Tiara :
hey guys.I'm not having relationship with Chris ya.
although that I'm so "rapat" with him in gym.
but.....we're not coupling...
:(
ok?!

out.... :)

Yesterday was definitely fun and cool.yup I'm hanging out with Mei-mei who is my cousin.Go window-shopping in Centre while talking about my family members who currently staying in LD and other places because I lost my memories about them actually,but I still remember a few.

Then,I suggest Mei-mei to visit Warisan Square to feel the coldness there,because CP is totally HOT and that's the truth.We walk and walk.Until Mei-mei wants to go EX shop to buy the purse fer herself.We lost in Warisan.not really because we can't find EX store.I'm so tired after 10 minutes finding the place.

We go to Big Apple and eat some donats.I'm gaining fat not losing fat.How terrible is it?! -sigh-.Then,suddenly I met an unknown guy which holding an EX's shopping bag.Then,of course EX store is nearing Big Apple.Then,me go searching fer it.....search-search-search.Yesh.I've found it.It is on 1st floor nearing Big Apple.OMG.yesh!!! Mei-mei bought a flip-flop and I've bought 2pencil box fer me and my bro.How cool am I?! haha.

Then,walk-walk.suddenly my hp wibrate.and there's a message from my ehem-ehem.he's saying that his coming to meet me and give me a Christmas Present.How cool is that ?! I'm so scared to meet him.Don't ask me why :) yup.He arrived Warisan and I met him nearing Big Apple.

-I'm planing to find him on the first floor which I can find him through upstairs.and that's the plan.I'm waiting.and waiting.I plan to go to other side.sekali,you know Andrian also at upstairs and searching fer me.hahahaha.I'm so shocked. :( woohoo.SAKIT JANTUNG.haha.He laugh at me and he said that he found me earlier.haha.He brought his "pretty" sister to join us.wow.His sister is so cute and she have a same face as his bro.

Go jalan-jalan at Asia City.Mei-mei said to me that Andrian is totally cool and romantic.haha.I can't denied.haha.erm.SKATE TIMES. Andrian and his lil sis join us.haha.funny things happened so do romantic things.I pushed Andrian.haha.nasib he didn't fell down.hehe. :) so fun...... :)
erm...the romantic stories can't list down.haha.PRIVATE.

yup.on 5.20 like that I went back to Tang Dynasty which my mum will pick me there.before going up.There's something happened.not bad thing.It's good thing...hehe.....PRIVATE....wanna know?! ask me personally. :)

Having a good time with Mei-mei and Andrian and also his lil sis... ;)
woohoo....... :)

FINISH

rules fer 2009.....

2009 wishlist.
i've made it just now...
hahahahaha....
read it darl and dear :)

1.I want good result fer my exams.
2.I want my family members will be happy and healthy forever.
3.I wish my beloved will get a good result(SPM)....
4.No chatting with *unknown* people..
5.I want to join TKD tournament.
6.stay away from "pilaks"
7.No wasting money
8.take care myself...
9.learn how to swimming ?!
10.smile and happy forever.

reason fer the wishlist
1.I want to make my parents proud of me.
3.I hope he will be happy fer it...
4.he asks me to do this fer him.
5.i want to be slim back....
8.his wish...
9.I don't know how to swim...

I want everyone to be happy.......
I want to have a good result......
I want Andrian will happy and healthy...

.FINISH.

emo day :(

Someone hacked my Friendster account !!
and I really don't know who.....
W-T-Hgo

all my "about me"HTML" were deleted.
and I'm totally angry and sad bout it...
yup....i CRY....!!!

andrian said that its ok....
then,I can do a new one...
"nasib" he said that,
if not I will still trapped in my angry and sadness.
thanks andrian. :)

not really having a nice day...
actually it is a terrible day fer me...
hahahahaha....

yesterday nite I went to City Mall to buy Christmas Presents.
fer all my family members...
I didn't buy my own present..
because I guess I will buy it in Warisan Square..
don't know want to buy what fer myself actually.
teeher :)

School gonna starts soon....
and I will study in J1Li...
yeah.....!!
same class with Lenee....
so happy when I knew about it....
but the bad thingy is...
I will meet zhou yun jie....
OMG.....save me!!!

27January gonna be celebrated soon...
yeshhh!!
but my birthdate ngam-ngam..
Chinese New Year...
how lucky am I....
is it lucky or else...
i oso blurrr....

tomorrow I will meet Mei-Mei,
my cousin from LD...
yesshhh!!!
gonna shopping !!
hahahahahahaha,
if I have money to buy things....
:) :) :) :)
Xmas gonna come...
merry Xmas to all who celebrates it...
:)
merry xmas andrian...muah

I want to meet Mia and Ain again !!!!!!!
miss them so muchhh...
Oh ya,Konea and Katrina...
I want to meet them too....

OKLAH...
let me stop here ok?
.FINISH.
muacccksss.....

randommm..

Hi there guys.
I had my 3days&2 nights in Tawau.
Randommm
I'm staying in King Park Hotel which really high enough.
7th floor.gawd.
I'm scared of highness... :)
you know Tawau already "maju"???
I'm so shocked when I went window-shopping there.
Tawau have so many boutique,high class saloon,tall building...
oh ya....and Pizza Hut....
damn I felt myself already long time didn't went to Tawau..
I have 1 announcement to tell...
want to hear???
I'm ...........
FAT !!!!!!
konea,i'm out of my mind... :(
fat means fat.....
and I'm no longer slim...
"PERASAN"
well.biasa bha..
I ate 5 meals a day.
THE TRUTH.
trust or not its ur prob darling.

I guess I'm 48 kg rite now...
OMG... just guessing and scared myself.
can someone tell me that I'm thin and slim enough???
teehee....
NOWAY.
:(
27th DECEMBER 2008.
I will die on that day.
remember that.
I know lah bha my birthdate 27th JANUARI.
but I will "mati kebosanan" on that day..
reason?ask me personally.
:0 HELPPPPPPP

oh yesss!!!!!
I'm 46kg..
maintain?!
noway...
how could this happen?
yup...
although i'm 46....
i'm still fat...

huh....
andrian,helppppp...
"teman" me go jogging want??
teehee...
mia,konea....
"teman" me go jogging...
hahahahaha...
LENEE.don't run away...
i know u slim but please accompany me jogging.
don't runnnnnn...

JUDE...
you say me "ikan sardin"
okay,wait...
i go wear bikini and let you see how fat my stomach..
SIGH.
i'm fat enuff....
:)

IMMAIKANSARDIN...
kan jude?!
hahahahahahaha.
guys.

again.again.again

Tomorrow I'm going to Tawau.
yup.
fer 3days2night only.
I will bring my lappie there.
So,I still can online.
No worries about release boring.
teehee =D
yesterday night,My mum've bought me a new gown.
teehee.nicee.
not really sexxaayy.
'nasib' my body still can fit into the gown.
if not , I'm dying.....
I will accompany Rosetta on this 28th December.
yeah.that day is her birthday.
but she don't want to celebrate it anyway.
she plans to bring me go skating in Asia City.
After that, SHOPPING TIME.
hahahaha.
rosetta.I'm gonna meet you soon..
and,you're national service will coming soon...
I will miss you.... :(
can someone tell me how deep that I love this guy?
hahahahahahahahaha...
:) :) :):):)
love is heart.heart is love.love is heart.

yeah...school will start soon...
yeah...Lenee I'll meet you soon.
and I'm gonna wear that new school uniform and "show off"
hahahaha...
'minta puji'

mum says she will bring me go to "Roxy" to buy school bag soon.
need to buy:
i.bag
ii.socks
iii.stationary
iv.shoes
xi.hairbands and hairclips(my hair too long)
xii.bottle.
*etc...

OMG...zhou yun jie?!!
zhou yun jie is my senior...
OMG...I will be shame... :)
HELPPPPPPPPPPPP
i know u guys don't understand.
hahaha.
secret.can't tell you.
:))))))))))))))

damn I really-really-really miss these friends:
-mia
-lenee
-rosetta
-cassey
-christian john?! haha.out.
-darius aka junior
-norashikin
-rose syakila farhain
-katrina claire
-konea kamin
-anugera nelam shah jalil
-tiara firdausi
-elijah john?!hahaha.
-PTI Nelvenson ?!haha
-andrian-


.FINISH.

teehee :)

teehee :)
nothing to say about today....
the time gone fast.
yup...
and I'm totally boring... :(
can someone help me with that ?!
can anyone couple without parental permission???
I hope I can have a boyfriend without any permission....
haish :(
damn.....
i'm born to love someone...
and you can't never changed me...
understand????
I can't sms him fer these few days...
and I really-really miss his messages....
can you just pick a gun and shoot me?!
frustating.damn.empty.
:C

<<>>
II FINISH II
Lost In Emptyness

the day....

This guy is freakin hot....
I'm melting.. :]

IIDennis Joseph O'neil.II

everyone.
If you saw this guy.
can you please send my regards to him?
teehee :]

OMG..
Han Yoo Ill..
damn hot.....
you're hot in "sweet spy"...

p/s to and: and.sorry...this few days can't sms you.
i'm busy this lately.... :]
btw....
appreciate the last message that you send to me...
remember??
and : "true de wor...no gf.no.no.no.have gf and her name is eva natasha."
sorry fer not replying...
pity you....
:(
my credit finish already,
btw...
i call you 2day...
and you didn't answer it...
:( :( :(

damn.

Hey you,
I know you very know and understand him de bah,
don't be too "minta puji".
he hates you.
understand ?!
you're the one who have a bad behaviour.
NOT him.
who am I if i didn't understand him?
damnyoustupid.
can you just shut up and close your mouth tightly?
don't hurt other people with your "bad" words.

for all people.
not saying anyone.
just want to release.
ANGRYNESS.
calm down.
teehee. :]

today?
ok-ok..
went to Karamunsing.
to buy something.
yup.
I've bought a bracelet.
hahahahahaha.
and I put my name on it.
evalove
:]
chatting with him.
and talk.talk.talk.
until he find out his hp is out of credit.
hahahaha.
so boring.
tonight?
I will go play badminton until 10pm.
wish me that I will still alive ok??
hahahahaha...
it will be tiring. :(

FINISH

wth

IILOST IN EMPTYNESS.II
teehee :]
i'm weird...
and someone really just told me that...
wow....
i thought i'm just joking with "IMMAWEIRDO"...
but....
yup...i'm weird...
and I felt so sad...
i can't tell him bout my sadness...
CAN'T.CAN'T.CAN'T
T-T
I just want to forget everything...
you'll see my emotional face expression again...
NO ONE UNDERSTAND ME..
NO ONE...
family love?friend love?boyfriend love?
all these are my most important things...
T-T..
and I'm not emo just bout the "weirdo"...
another thing happened...
and changed everything...
I'm changed...
He changed...
everyone changed...

can't continue...
FINISH.

summer times... :0

filling my blog with some pictures..teehee...
luv u guys....muahs and :)

today :)

IIThe picture that I love the mostII

Last nite...
I'm goin crazy rite,And???
haha....
I love And...
if my mum read this...
I hope she will never angry...
please... :]
last nite...
too busy chit-chatting with And...
yup....need to "teman" him...
but until 10.30 I felt so sleepy..
very pity And... :(
need to leave him alone..
today is a boring day fer me...
not going anywhere just staying in my house...
and BLOGGING. *teehee*
haha...
And said that I'm crazy...
because I always smiles and laughs...
and I admit it...because that is the truth..
I guess Mia my sis and Syazrul my abang ipar also think that I'm crazy.
hahaa...
laugh again...
p/s to And:sweetish you....muahs... ^_^
THE END...

new bloggie,hanging out.

new bloggie..
teehee...
new URL guys...
http://immaweirdo-desires.com

yeah...
yesterday...
finally...
I've met my lovely sister---Mia....
She's so white and lovely.
Oh ya...
I also met my bakal abang ipar--Mohd.Syazrul
He's so tall...(taller than me..of course)
this couple really makes me jealous of them...
how sweet they are.... :)
they just don't "mengaku"...teehee...
Mia took some pictures on that day...
and the result...
I love it....
We go Asia City to skate...
We go The Chicken Rice Shop to eat some food..
actually I didn't eat...
haha...diet... :]
erm...
so sad...
I met mia and syazrul only fer 1hour and half...
the time really gone fast...
we were talking about crapp...
and you all should not know about it..haha..
I hope that I can meet the sweet couple again next time...